I know I am really jumping around here by posting some current events in the midst of attempting to catch up on some very overdue blog posts, but bear with me. I need a break from all of the catching up!
This past week Trent and I had some spare time on our hands between work, feedings and naps...and he was actually pretty happy and calm...so we decided to stop by and see if our IVF doctor was in the office. I had stopped by with Trent several times before but could never catch him. I remember how difficult it was to score a few moments of his time even WITH an appointment...so without an appointment was proving to be nearly impossible. Thankfully this time the receptionist let him know I was waiting, and he came out of his appointment to say hi and to meet Trent.
I cannot even describe the feeling I got being back in the office and introducing him to Trent. It was both amazing and horrifying at the same time. It just brought back SO many memories and so many emotions. All of the frustration and depression I used to feel sitting in that very same waiting room seemed like it had been a lifetime ago, but it was still so vivid. And while I was so incredibly excited to introduce him to Trent and to celebrate that this was finally "over," I couldn't help but think of how it is probably only over for THIS time. And how I might be right back in that waiting room facing the same struggles all over again.
But for that moment at least we hugged and laughed and celebrated this little miracle. Add a comment »
