Sweet Orange Fox

I wish I could say I can't believe that tomorrow is the first of February, but instead I will have to say I can't believe that tomorrow is ONLY the first of February!! Time is DRAGGING. Even though I have managed to pack my days with work, errands, chores, etc, somehow time just seems to be standing still. Any suggestions??

I have now finished a little over a week of Lupron injections and finally have been able to discontinue the birth control pills. Hallelujah. However now I am just in another one of those holding/waiting weeks. I am *supposed* to start the stimulants on Saturday, and I think that will be the first time I really feel like it is all finally happening. Actually let's be honest..I'm sure I won't truly feel that way until I'm being wheeled in for the egg retrieval. I am so excited for the anesthesia, btw. Last time I went under I had incredible dreams about Brad Pitt...hopefully I can pick up where I left off.. Don't worry, Matt...they were totally innocent! Really!

My to-do list has been suffering a little bit lately. Instead of occupying the few spare moments I have with items on the list, I have been engaging in self-torture in the form of incessant googling. I can't stop reading about all things IVF...and somehow I seem only to come across the negative stories. It has really been getting to me...I try to counteract those feelings by googling more positive things..like...baby furniture, baby clothes, baby everything... I want so badly to be pregnant, in my second trimester and shopping for baby. I love browsing online as it makes me happy that this might be in my not-so-distant future, but I worry about letting myself get too comfortable with those ideas and getting my hopes up a bit too much. I just need to find a balance...keeping positive and looking forward without getting my hopes up.

The injections are going well. Nothing interesting to report. My stomach looks ridiculous with all the bruising though...good thing it isn't swimsuit season! Which is also a good thing since I've become a complete lardass since starting the medication. Honestly...think...Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade....that is about how I feel at the moment.








I guess that is it really. Oh..we decided to redecorate our bedroom since I will probably be spending a significant amount of time there in the coming weeks. I'll post pictures soon!